boring update of mine...

after entering clinical life...

it's not easy...

1stly to say is i've halfly quit playing msn chatting, skype and facebook...

but due to mobile digi can access facebook without charge, that's why u guys can still see me online updating my latest status...

was not in best shape recently...

i realised that once enter clinical year...

it's not that the study method is different, u have to learn how to communicate with patients, and also u need to see the mood of those M.O and H.O...

if the previous night they get enough sleep, and those patients are all okay, not really critic, and they're not busy then u get the chance to talk to them and ask them to teach u, maybe show inserting cannula and teaching u the simple procedures like ecg, and those kind of "sup sup sui" things...(since i'm still a child in clinical experiences, that's what we're learning...)

most of the time we're clerking the patient in two, i with my groupmate, mainly Julia, we'll go by two, approaching patients and try to talk to them..

and only i realised, it's hard to take the 1st step to talk to the patient, esp those suffer in pain and show a big :( , and some are really like in multiple chest tube, and all the instruments are with them, those we actually din go and approach coz most of these patients are really in chronic stage and kesian them, dun la go kacau wey...let them sleep~~:)

now the main prob with me is, i have to polish up my basic physical examination, try to talk fluent in eng as it's important during care presentation, and so sorry to say, my eng is really SXCKS!

the other thing is, learn how to communicate and live well with my colleagues, coz frankly saying, and daring to say, actually many alr start complaining each other alr...due to? u will know if u're a medical students i think...heheh...else wanna knw just give me a call and i will tell...haha

for me it's not worthy to gaduh gaduh over small small things la...though i oso experience those kind of prob few times when sem starts, but honestly, i'd forgive and forget...everyone needs to pass through all this prob...it's just the matter of time...so, just take it easy la..:)
as long as i gt my friends, my beloved family, and my colleagues supporting me always then i'm fine (after merajuk for some times la of course..)haha...

but last weekend was really a bad weekend for me, i wonder bad luck had chosen my way...
damn me for i'm stupid ke po...that's y i get scolded without a proper reason, and it's not my fault either way..
one or two is enough, i still can bear with it...claim myself bad luck then...but bunch (exaggerating) of ppl treat that i'm a lepas geram tong!! wat the...spoilt my weekend mood...

if i know it earlier, i would rather choose to stay at hostel (though i might be quite emo over too boring) than going out but being qi kek...

i appreciate that at least when i was down, still there are some human be there for me to let me complain to...being very grateful that i found my IC back two days after i lost it...my fault too coz i din check though the blood test counter gal din return to me...learn a lesson*

miss those time when we spent together badly...

realised that some of the things when u lost it, u cant find it back anymore...

relationship is actually maintained both sides, once lost the other side, u cant really chase anything back...

i'm pretty quite sad over some of the friends who stay far away from me, they cant really get to me when i'm down. when i seriously need them...but somehow, i know i've to think in the way that " they are still my friend, just matter of distance, they're actually be my side"...

sometimes, it's actually cheating myself of this kind of thoughts...coz somehow when we're down, we still need a few words of comfort from the important one...that;s how my sadness, emo emo things go away...

anyhow, cant really online coz i cant access internet in my room...that's y u guys wont see me around at msn like last time most of the time...

k la...till here first, time to go ward again...

see ya~
pray for my wisdom and health to strive through these clinical years stuff all the way...

best of luck! ciao~