碰不到.摸不着.原来是思念

有时我在想

如果让你看见现在的我

会否觉得很陌生？

会否觉得我真的长大了？

我，好不像我？

你知不知道我在干什么？

你知不知道我现在的生活是什么？

你知不知道我已经二十二岁了？

你知不知道我还是很喜欢喝瓶装可乐？

你知不知道我还是很怀念你院子前的泥沙？




我真的真的真的真的真的…………

好想念你

在这雨季

在这该死的节日

在这我无法出席的一天



我真的好想你……

想念你的味道

想念你紧握着我的双手



你的轮廓

你的皱纹

还有你的眼镜

每想起

我就觉得好遥远

握不住的影子

只能继续用力想象

感觉你的存在



似乎很近

像在心里

似乎很远

连碰也碰不到

看也看不见

你我的距离……

原来……

好遥远……



思念你

因为太甜密

所以好苦

回复 :)

想说

我真的很感动

当我自从post了上个blog后

没再打开到现在

再上来才发现

那么短短的一篇随性的blog

竟然得到大家那么大的鼓励

我不知道说什么好

只是觉得……

深深地，在心里

暖暖的

很感动


下面那个blog所说的事情

的确用了我一个晚上的时间思考

甚至破天荒地睡不着

想着……

因为不是很想说出我到底在烦些什么

所以只随性的描述了我的心情

写下了在我脑海里转了一个晚上的一个想法



幸亏我逃回家了

得到了解答

却同时得到更多的忧虑

一些束手无策的忧虑

只有不断地继续忧虑

幸亏

对于其他琐碎的烦恼事

我总算发挥了我一点点地“功能”

不至于觉得无能

…………



对于anonymus们~

谢谢你们的鼓励

我知道你们总是默默地支持着我

但现实归现实

有些事情，还是得一个人面对

我希望我的决定是对的

我会坚持！

巴黎、weiwei：

我很好

只是在对于一些事情的取舍之间徘徊而已

生活是酸甜苦辣

人生不只是有甜

还有酸、苦、辣要尝

（虽然本身就很喜欢酸辣啦~呵呵~）

我不怕苦，

只要吃了苦后，

你们可以给我一杯水解苦~

XD




p/s: Anonymus: "Far we are apart, prayer keeps us near." <-- touched :'')

stress

should i or should i not?

risking myself?

or paint a colorful picture in my history of life?


alone?

我会坚持

不向困境低头！

WE ARE NOTHING by Namewee/KarenKong 四大皆空 黃明志/龔柯允

to those who's still shap har shap har...

who thinks that they've got everything in the world...

to those who likes to look down on the power of nature...

this is the song for u..

hope it will "enlighten" u..


and... sth i really beh tahan and wanna speak out here::

after the tragic quake in japan,

i accidentally saw some of the ppl post sth like this " 日本地震后，竟然看到很多人突然跳出来在facebook写说要为japan祈祷，真是有爱心到~~“

=.=

somehow, the statement light up a small fire in me...

if you guys are trying to show some special characteristic

wanna tarik perhatian, please GO OFF to the corner of ur little rubbish dumping site!

this is sth not supposed to be joke with...



i'm wondering what's the content in ur head!

moron!

we cant do much for japan,

and the only thing we can do is just pray... for peace and minimum devastation.

missing 143

weekend is the time where u start to miss home cook food.
-whenever u eat alone

miss the ppl in the familiar house where u lived since childhood.
-whenever you stay in the dead air space for hours and wondering where to go

miss the one laugh with you.
-whenever you're watching movies or drama, but you're laughing alone
(and the most suck part is, u can even hear ur own laughing echoe =.=)

miss the one who talk heart by heart with you.
-whenever you scroll up and down of the msn list, but you can find no one to talk to

and the one who care you the most.
-when you're enjoying maggie alone



i miss my brother who make me laugh hard til blushed like a tomato

i miss my mom who i used to tell her everything

i miss my dad who likes to sit in the living room and read bible every night

and............. i miss the time when i can rebut his 1st class king size bed to lye on................



why isn't upm just right beside stw????

:(

闲

越长大

越觉得东西越来越不受控制

是因为小时候总是要风得风要雨得雨吗？

好多事情

就算千方百计

用尽全力、汗水泪水

甚至用命拼搏

都不会如你所愿

人的能力真的很有限

想做的事也相继越来越多

因办不到而累积着




这一个周末又是一个寂静的周末

想说最近有些事情在干扰着我

虽然是可以暂时性置之不理

这些事情也可能随时间而脱离

我只想说

我想好好的过生活

不希望太多要以客气的方式

胆战心惊的方式来一一解决

当哪天可能我有那个心情时

可能我会耐性的面对

但若是我耐性欠佳时

希望我仅剩的理智可以避免我做出一些出乎意料的举动



真心希望那些看了会眼晕的事

请远离我

我没那个心情要layan你

5年后的感触

谁知道

当时的我

也曾经很害怕在你们当中

不被接纳

不被肯定



纵使是这样

我还是硬着头皮

走下去

走着走着

我看见你们的微笑

跌倒时

我看见你们的手向我伸过来

难过时

我看见你们的手拍打着我的肩膀



虽然接纳我的也许不是全部

但是我为那些接纳我的而感到很欣慰

很感激接纳我的你们

在失去你们重要东西的同时

还能够接纳我




虽然有时还是会觉得自己不是属于你们

但是我还是希望自己可以找到适合自己的角落

为你们带来一些欢笑

喜乐

以前的我追不回

但是

我希望

接下来的日子当中

都有你我的回忆

提不起精神

前提：

唉~

我是一只懒惰虫



***************************************************


现在我坐在fac的一个角落

上网着

风景很美

可以看到小小的klcc

弯弯的月亮

凉风吹袭着我

心情很平静

蝉鸣声、

街灯、

倒影、

月光、

我想说

这是个好地方

读书的好地方



最近有些是让我有些忧虑

有些烦

但不想说

也不愿提

别问我

我只想找个角落写写

发泄发泄

我希望我身边的人都好好的

我想拥抱他们每一个人

深深地祝福着他们每一个人

因为他们是我最深爱的人

我希望虽然我不能在他们每个人身边

但他们都能够过的好好的

幸福的

无忧无虑的

真的……………………

what are words

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

妈妈说

妈妈说

要学会一个人生活啊……


:(

-empty-

yes

right now the only feeling i can describe deep in me is empty

hardly find something else to do except studying, sleeping, eating

again...(uni internet sucks, makes my life even miserable)

i think previous post i've alr mumbling bout how boring is my life

sorry that i'm going to repeat again..



i feel damn boring keep repeating the same thing everyday and live my life so meaninglessly

it's just so EMPTY

other than all about studies what else can i do huh??

-.-

seriously i wanna get rid of it..

but how come so blank? so many empty spaces huh??

too free?? but at the same time i hate too busy!

so what's the point??



sien...

=.=

study again...zzzzz