S.O.S

recently wasn't in good shape...
have been mentally tired...
though i've finished exam, graduated, went to trips, meeting up friends...
but im just tired... mentally... exhausted...

when things happened out of my control
i cant even choose and it all already happened
my fault for letting myself sunk into the trouble even though at the very first place i know it was wrong...
im so sick of being so indecisive... so not-me!
for the past few months.. im lost.. totally..
i just cant get myself out of the frame..

friends,
im being honest here, being naked, confessing my guilt..
coz i think i cant take it anymore..
ive been hiding my feelings...
in front of u all..in front of family.. faking up smiles..
seriously, im not good..
im losing my faith.. of trusting still there is sth good.. trusting that everything will be fine...
im so sorry that i couldnt really mentioned what'd happened.

everyone has their own weakest point..
and now i found my weakest part...
yeah, when it comes to emotion and feelings..
perhaps, i shall just take it as part and parcel of life..
sth to learn from..
yeah.. through His strength i shall raised up one day again..
yeah i know.. i know.. advices are no longer needed.. 
im clear with what im going through
im just having a difficult time..
and yes, i need companion..
i need to fill up my time..
please do pay me a visit or drop me a message or give me a hug when u see me..

yes, im being weird.. for asking all these.. 
but who cares?

perhaps, this is the way of how He let me know that i've done wrong.. 
im sorry for being stubborn..
those who gave me advices and yet im still doing the way that i want..
now i know i should take my responsible for what i've done..
clean up the mess.. : (
im sorry for those who had expectation on me..
i made mistake..

for the past few months, things happened swayed from my life track
now it's time to let it back to usual
for what had already happened, happened..
heart broken was seriously not a good feelings..
hope that time will heal it all..

i know it is all the process of learning, growing up...
after all, dont worry.. im still in a piece..
not having suiciding idea ha!
just keep me accompanied when u guys free..
need u all badly..
so so badly...
argh!
:''(