emptiness

emptiness-

it's not the feeling of craving for sth..

it's that, when u find nothing can replace the emptiness of your heart..

sth very shallow inside u, but yet very deep to reach...



boresome hit me gao gao when the world stop spinning..

not that i don't know how to appreciate the people around me...

not that i don't appreciate that they are making jokes and funny stuff to amuse me...

but it's all about oneself...

something that is internal...

trying to do sth to satisfy myself, make me thinks that i'm useful...

ya, i guess the feeling is the feeling of uselessness...

i cant satisfy myself sometimes, i don't get to reach my expectation sometimes...




i know that there are moments that i need to slow down my pace to let myself get some rest...

but whenever i stop, i dont think i worth the rest, coz i've been resting all the while...

what's the point? rest doesn't cure the feeling inside me anyway...





not many that knows what i need and what i hope...

some compliment and encouragement keeps me moving on...

but how about the times when no one encourage me and i'm all alone?

still, i'm not tough enough??





* it's nice to hear one said :" girl, u have a nice warm hand, and a warm heart.."
though by that time, i'm touching a pair of cold hand...

the word "warm", just simply makes me feel that i've did sth! at least, i've send a temperature impulse to his brain~