i'm back!

Hey people…

After a long break at home…after quite a number of traveling all over the west of Malaysia. It’s fun to know quite a number of dong’s friend- joseph, jonah, sin bi, CK, edwinn…get to met with esther, abu, cslee, zhi qian… get to have a chance to countdown with witch yen, violin, nee nee, pariskid, redbean… and now I have finally settled down and started to pack my stuff and get ready to get back to my cage…say goodbye to my enjoyable holidays…

Yup…this is the beginning of the year 2010 that supposingly, we are expecting our future with hopes and faiths…

Not saying that I’m in kind of hopeless and faithless… but when I reviewed back what have I done in last year, there were too much to laugh at and too much to make me sigh…

There were ups and downs, agreement and argument, wondering and knowing, hopes and fear…

I realised that, always, we only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe.

When the truth is against our will, then we started to deny. Cheated to ourselves so that the pains or fears go away… and it works!

we lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth.

We deny so much that we don’t recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

But anyhow, denial doesn’t change the truth. Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial and face the world.

I had made a mistake last year… which was embarrassing… which I was too lack of EQ and did it spontaneously… and now having feeling of regretful but yet didn’t explain about the incident coz it will just make thing worst…

And then I learned a lesson from this, many of the times, we are stimulated by the environment, the atmosphere that would make us feel something strange, eg, loneliness, being betrayed, excited etc…sometimes, these are just illusion, thinking that things are going to happen in our way, things are happening in this way… well, pretty sure after you get sober from the drinks that it was wrong… and now trying to remind myself that anything happen, I would try not to let my emotion control my mind… and I found out that after a sleep, minds will be clearer and things will just get easier in its own…not to react on the spot will just be nice… “think, before it turns out to become act.” It is really true…

p/s: specially thanks to abu, cslee who sent me back to upm though they didn’t actually wanna go kl… really appreciate that they do me this favor which make me really convenient… thanks so much for the help… * ^^ *