8 minutes in library computer room..

after MS assesment, i dont really have mood to back to study again...
though my notes are accumulating once again..
but i just dont have motivation to start at least highlighting again...

homesick maybe?
i miss those days when i just need to go school and playing around in class with friends...and when came back home, mummy cook lunch for me...
and i have to rush and ate it as soon as possible as i have to rush for the tuition class on 2:30pm
haiz...
since enter U, many problems rise up...
perhaps we are not teenage anymore...
growing up and start to enter a mature life style...
many problems need to think of alr...
sometimes just feel that me myself think too much alr...
sometimes being too care of sth will eventually make u fall into troubles...

haiz...
not in a good mood nor bad mood..
just moodless...
later going midvalley go shopping..
tomorrow go genting with coursemates...
life seems very playful..
but i dont know why just cant cheer myself up...
i'm TOO sentimental??
it's not a good thing afterall...

feelings keep on accumulate inside myself which i cannot express it out in certain condition...
being mature...sometimes is really torturing...
coz we need to consider every action we are going to take...
the consequences if i do so? or if i do not do so..
how nice if i just can shouted it out and mess the thing up and dont give it a damn and chiao..
but responsibilities tied me up...
i do not dare to take the risk...


again 3 minutes later have to attend another class..
just feel like i'm a bit useless and my body cant really cooperate with my mind d..
since i wanna to focus during lecture but my eyelids keep on wanna drop down ...
mind not functioning well...
though i know what should i do and what i shouldnt...
but sometimes i just wanna do sth i shouldnt do and strive over everything...
AARRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!


what should i do???
neither i choose go or not go oso gt problem one..
sien!!!
i think i shouldnt stay alone...
coz i will keep on thinking other nonsense thing...

by the way,
I LOVE MIX UP WITH CHURCH FRIENDS...
lol...
"BANGI SATAY~ ROX!!!"